Thursday, August 1, 2013

One Disturbed (sick, sick, sick) Woman

Body Integrity Image Disorder

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I read this story last week, and planned to write a blog post on it, but every time I re-read the story, I got so angry, I couldn’t write about it without fuming. So I apologize ahead of time if this blog post turns into a rant. Tina’s recent post reminded me I haven’t written about this yet.

OK, so this woman, Chloe Jennings-White fantasizes about being disabled. She wants to be a paraplegic so badly that she’s looking for a surgeon to perform an operation to make her legs stop working. This woman has a “rare psychological condition” called Body Integrity Identity Disorder (BIID). She has actually found a doctor who will perform the surgery (Hippocratic oath?), but she doesn’t have the $25,000 for the procedure.

I can’t access the entire article anymore, but in it, Chloe says she’s never been comfortable with the fact that her legs work normally. At the age of four, her aunt had an accident and had to use leg braces. From then on, Chloe wanted braces also. She wanted them so badly she hand-made some for herself to “pretend”.

She also uses a wheel chair to “pretend” to be paralyzed. She pretended in secret for years, and finally divulged her secret to her partner. The woman she lives with now does all the housework, and helps Chloe do things. Chloe also has gone so far as riding her bike off of a four-foot stage, landing on her neck in order to paralyze herself.

Chloe also enjoys skiing. She admits to going skiing sometimes because of the possibility she will have an accident and become paralyzed. She skis recklessly, and scares her family.

I still have a hard time wrapping my brain around this. A completely healthy able-bodied woman wanting to damage herself to be stuck in a chair the rest of her life?

Tina made a good point in her blog. Tina said that in the video, Chloe uses a wheelchair, but when she gets to a spot where it’s difficult to maneuver the chair where she wants to go, she stands up and pushes it to where she wants to go. Tina can’t do that. I remember when I watched the video, Chole was “transferring” herself from the bed to the chair. She tries not to move her legs, but when she scoots herself into position, her legs help her out.

OK. So let’s say Chloe does have this surgery (it still boggles my mind that any sane doctor would agree to do this), and ends up paralyzed. What happens when she can’t get her chair to go where she wants it to go? What happens when, as a result of the surgery, she’s in pain the rest of her life? Even if she’s not in pain from the surgery, your butt is going to be sore from sitting for so long. You won’t be able to stand up and stretch your legs.

Paraplegics can ski, but it won’t be same. So, Chloe’s passion for skiing will have to be altered. Her partner won’t be able to help her 24 hours a day (I assume she works for a living), so how will Chloe manage to do things? That’s one (one in a million) thing that bugs me. Paraplegics can manage housework and they also go out and work for a living. But, even without the surgery, Chloe has her partner do everything.

You get the picture here. Chloe is a sick, sick, woman and needs help. She does see a psychotherapist, but he indulges Chloe with her fantasies. He allows her to use a wheelchair at the sessions.

I could go on and on about how angry this woman makes me. I’m not alone in my feelings. Many disabled people feel she is insane, being ridiculous, or just being lazy. I hope she doesn’t end up getting this surgery, but if she does, I don’t want to hear her regrets. She won’t have my sympathy.

I think this is the full video from the news story. She’s got several clip on YouTube, but I can’t stomach to watch her anymore.


Fox News

Fox News link to The Sun’s story.


  1. First, that person *is* sick!
    Second, and much more importantly, thank you for sharing your journey! I have been pondering the barriers of the disabled a bit more of late. I am an 'able-bodied' disabled by having a stage iv cancer diagnosis. We are encouraged, I think, to see ourselves as different, better perhaps. It is a very false divide that limits our collective voice. Anyway, I appreciate your efforts.
    warmly, marcy

  2. Thanks so much for stopping by! I just subscribed to your blog, and am looking forward to following your journey. Keep fighting the good fight!

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  4. It truly boggles my mind that people feel compelled to make up a bunch of nonsense about me and then criticise their OWN nonsense. If anyone wants to have a discussion about something real, I'm game. But you need a reality check for starters:

    1. It is rubbish to assert that I am a "completely healthy able-bodied woman". I have been physically disabled for the last 27 years.

    2. I never pretend to be paralysed. I am totally open about having BIID.

    3. I was prescribed a wheelchair on account of my physical disabilities, including category D T10-T12 spinal compression injury.

    4. I am NOT seeking surgery for paraplegia, just transection of the femoral and sciatic nerves to the left leg only.

    5. It is absolute rubbish to claim that I don't do any housework! I do ALL the mowing of lawns for example. Since my wife is essentially housebound due to disability, I do ALL of the chores outside the home; groceries, post office, bank. etc. "Chloe has her parter do everything"; You gotta be kidding me! You are living in fantasy land.

    6. Monoplegia does NOT mean one is stuck in a chair!

    7. The majority of disabled people who contact me are accepting, understanding and emotionally supportive. I have four wonderful friends with cerebral palsy.

    8. I am ALREADY in constant pain from my physical disabilities.

    I could go on and on about how angry I am at people who tell lies about me. But I am always open for a genuine discussion.